This and That

* Keith has been out of town for a week. A VERY long week. Tonight G sat next to me on the couch as I was trying to set up an ichat with him and said, "Daddy's gone." It was SO sad. I feel the same way though. I don't know how single parents do it. The hours from 4-8 are the longest. Mainly because that's the time I feel the worst and G is at his neediest.

* Grayson calls a weed eater a "mow-eater." Gotta love that.

* The older G gets the more fearful I become that something bad will happen to him and/or Keith. Come to think of it, this feeling may be related to pregnancy hormones. If I wake up in the middle of the night and don't immediately hear G snoring on the monitor, I click on the screen to be sure he hasn't been abducted. Yes, I really do. And that is really what I think could happen. I have got to stop watching Law and Order. But given that I've seen every episode 10 times it probably doesn't matter now.

* I have lost one pound in the first trimester of this pregnancy. That is the bonus of throwing up your supper most nights. With G I had GAINED 10 lbs by this point. Go me.

* Grayson periodically calls me "Mommy Kirsten." Like when I put him in his car seat and ran into the house to grab his sippy cup, I heard him calling "Mommy Kirsten!" from the car. he was smiling - he clearly thinks it's funny. I guess if he begins to do this in public, people will think that Grayson Has Two Mommies  or we are some type of Big Love family.

* I miss doula-ing. It would be nice to have a client before the baby is born.

* On any given day my house overwhelms me. I met a woman last week who has kids but calls herself a homemaker (vs. a  stay at home mom). Of course, she does have a full time nanny. Anyhow, I am clearly NOT a homemaker. Homemesser? Yes. Homeslacker. Certainly. But not a homemaker. Can't I get a shot for this or something? Is there some type of therapy that can make me enjoy cleaning and organizing my house and buying knick knacks for holidays?  Ah well, I will just be satisfied with my role as Mom and I'll try and maintain the house the best I can. Just don't look to closely at anything when you come over and PLEASE don't snoop in the closets - you might trigger an avalanche.

* My best neighborhood mom friend moved. I didn't think it would be such a big deal, but it IS.  She was one street over so we would meet for walks or hang out at each others houses in the afternoons when our kids were making us crazy. Our kids had similar precocious little personalities and we just clicked. I think I've been kind of depressed about it.

* I normally hate the Dallas Zoo . In general I think it is shameful that we advertise it as our city zoo. It is just pathetic. But. They have a new kids area. And actually the kids area in general is not that great either - there was one whole bunny to pet in the "farm" part of it. BUT. There is a wading stream. A glorious little bubbling 2-year old sized wading stream that G would have played in all day if I had let him. So. I am now a member of the Dallas Zoo. Let the record show that I don't like anything in the zoo other than the wading stream. But damn, it's a great stream.

* I went for a walk down to the lake today and was going to take the path behind the neighborhood but stopped in front of the sign that said "Snake Crossing." We took the street.

* Tomorrow is G's first day of "school." (He'll be going for a whole 3 hours 1 day a week) I better get to bed!

Comments

[Sundee]

Can't wait to hear about school! Ah, the lake...what a wonderful idea. Today would be perfect...it is stunning outside. Miss seeing you.

[motherofbun]

Congrats on your baby news! SO excited and happy for ya'll! YEAY!

[chrys]

i'm right there with you on the homemaker stuff. add "planning birthday parties" to the list of things i don't like to do and am not good at. maybe we could be in group therapy together.

chrys

[Katrina]

I just read the last several posts and watched the videos and Grayson is so absolutely adorable I could take a bite of him! What a cutie!
Hope you're feeling better.
We should get together. Dan's in Berlin for 2 weeks right now. Evan's been asking for Daddy alot and Nathan is "resting" on his pillow in our bed during the day.
Yes, I'm with you too on the homeslacker. My standard of clean has dropped with each kid and again now and this one's not even here yet! Whatever - dirt can wait. I'll have time someday!